Jacki C King

i’ve always had this thing inside me to be better than the norm…i worked hard to be better than someone on my softball team because i didn’t want to be just an average ball player….i made sure that my grades were better than average so that i could at least be past some of those in my class…
i never really thought trying to be against the norm so much would  cause so much comptetiveness and fear in my life. i have a huge desire to be the best child of God I can be, the best wife I can be, the best daughter i can be..girls minister….etc….

i’ve found her lately that my fear in failing has kept me from being more than the norm…statistics and numbers are constantly filling my head of how others have failed and how most couple or women are and i try to fight so hard against it to where i fall more and more into what i am trying so hard not to be. why?

i have to continually tell myself that as long as i am obedient and surrendered God will do and provide the rest. it’s funny how our fears can keep up from accomplished the very will that God has for us.

  to be honest with you when this whole world wide blogging boom hit i was pretty anti-blogging, my husband would continue to talk about how many “hits” he would have, and the new look his website would have. so what does a wife do when something gets on her nerves? she joins in! (not always)

i began my website really more on the basis of just giving my husband and i something to talk about, something else to share, but it has developed into something so much more.

i am not one to type on big controversial things going on in the media or even biblical views on confusing passages, but i do pour out my heart and share what God is teaching me through day to day life. this all really started as reflection of what its like to be a 21 year old student, wife, girls minister, and employee all under the umbrella as Christ’s child.

i’m not going to make the statement that i have become closer to God or anything like that, but I do think that God has used fellow warriors in the faith to encouarage. For Example, Tracy and Janna: never met them before, never talked to them over the phone, but I know that there are two very Godly women praying for me and concerned with whats going on in life. Maybe God has just used this to bring encouragement and wisdom, i know to me, but to others too. Thanks ladies!

Latley there have been a lot of changes going on. A lot of challenges and a lot of blessings all mixed into one. Sometimes I am on this huge high so excited about what God is doing and the next I am finding myself wondering how I am ever going to get out of it.I have the type of personality that will worry and stress over the smallest things. If someone is hurting I want to play the role of the Holy Spirit, as my husband would say, and fix it all right then and there, if there is a lot on my plate I run and run and run until I can’t take another step.

I started to ask myself this morning, What is stress? And I came up with this answer: a lack of faith. Faith is knowing that God is going to take care of you even when you don’t know the outcome. Faith is being obedient and doing what He calls you to do even when you don’t feel like it. My faith is determined on God not on me and what I’m going through. I think it might be something women just struggle with in general, having to work and please everyone, and take care of everyone, before we know it we are tending to the whole world and wondering how we can “juggle” it.

No matter how hard or crazy things get you can’t get stressed you just get on your knees more which is something I need to practice more. If I was truly approaching my Father with all of my concerns and pouring them at His feet every morning I think my stress-meter would go down tremendously.

“There has to be a constant You take control.”